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[tuesday
december 06, 2005
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a. list ten things you want to say to people but know you never will.
b. don't say who they are.
c. disable comments.
d. never discuss it again.
1. i dont really like the person you've become but i guess theres nothing i can do about it we've pretty much grown apart but u know ill always be here if you need me
2. sometimes i feel as if i dont mean much to you but i know that im wrong i wish we were closer i think ur an amazing person & i get highly jealous of u alot but only because i know that ur beautiful & such a great person
3. i think you need to realize that some things u do r hurtful & u shouldnt continue to do them. plain & simple.
4. IRISH PEOPLE RULE SO SHUT THE FUCK UP haha this one will be obvious to the person lol ur beautiful & hysterical & i love u
5. i dont like you.
6. i love you & im glad weve became close i hope u straighten out ur feelings & everything goes well
7. ive gotta say i think i know u the least & i hope to change that cause i think ur a great person & ur beautiful
8. i think ive lost u & i dont know y we couldnt make our friendship work theres so many days when i want to go up & talk to u cause i know ud make me smile if u talked to me in return but i fear u wont & maybe its my fault that we dont talk anymore but i wish we did
9. i love u to death but sometimes i just dont get you & your reasoning
10. i dont get you. we had a great friendship but not anymore & sometimes i just wanna talk to the old you but ur not there anymore. idk what happened but sometimes i dont even care. & u can say all u want that u miss me but if u dont make an effort to be my friend then the feeling cant be too strong
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| R.I.P. Uncle Brian |
[sunday
november 20, 2005
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"Brian C. Reid Sr.
BRIAN C. REID, SR. - age 51, of Danbury, CT formerly of Stamford died unexpectedly at Danbury Hospital on Thursday Nov. 17, 2005 due to injuries sustained in an automobile accident. He was the husband of Janis E. (Baker) Reid.
He was born September 5, 1954 in Yonkers, NY son of the late Kenneth and Alfie (Neilsen) Reid.
He was a graduate of Fork Union Military Academy, Fork Union, VA class of 1972.
He was employed by Pitney Bowes Corp., Brookfield, CT in Quality Control and prior to that in Shelton, CT, he started with them as a Temp for 2 years and employed full time for 29 years for a total of 31 years of service.
He enjoyed golfing, camping, and cooking and also was an avid Boston Red Sox Fan.
In addition to his wife he is survived by his mother-in-law Eleanor F. Baker of Southbury, his sons Brian C. Reid, Jr. and his fiancee Cassandra Jenkins and granddaughter Madison of Danbury, and Michael John Reid of Danbury, a daughter Michele Leia Reid of Danbury and several nieces and nephews."
I love you Uncle Brian, you will be missed.
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| Peyton's Podcast |
[thursday
november 17, 2005
at 10:26pm] |
"Um, God, I'm rambling. I'm sorry. But as long as I am, um, here's what sucks about boys in high school: they're afraid to be themselves. Now, here's what suck about girls in high school: they're afraid to be themselves. You see, what's sad is by high school, everyone's already been burned once or twice, and nobody is willing to lower their guard. I think that's the big reason cliques exist. You know, it's safer that way emotionally. I mean, if I cross the battle lines and I wander into foreign territory, like, like if one day I decide I want to hang out with the skater dudes, I've gotta rely on a whole lotta grace. Plus, my friends have to let me. You know, they have to be confident enough to know that my skater dude for a day pose isn't a criticism of them in any way, you know? And then the new tribe has to accept me. You know, they have to be confident enough to not be threatened by me. And this includes them, their friends, their girlfriends, and then their girlfriends' friends. And finally, I have to be confident enough to take the journey in the first place. In a place and at a time when nobody is confident. I supposed that's like the dark secret that needs to be exposed - nobody in school, no matter how it appears is ever completely confident. And also, the world won't stop if you change roles. You know, a few eyebrows will raise. Random questions will be asked. Maybe someone will make a smartass remark or two, but at the end of the day, it's probably going to be okay. You know? But then again, the Chinese built a wall 'cause they couldn't roll with the Mongolians. Talk about your cliques.
Okay. You know how many days you'll live if you live to be, like, 76? 27,740. Now, you know how many of those days will be spent in high school? Like, 700. Maybe 740. That leaves 27,000 other days. And yet, if you ask your parents or someone over 21 or anyone truthful, they'll tell you that high school was the place they remember with the deepest amount of fondness or fear or resentment or regret. There's that word. Regret. It's 700 days, you know, out of 27,000. Okay, maybe some of you only get 20,000. Or maybe you'll live to be 100 and you'll get 36,000 days. Either way, are you gonna let 700 of them change everything? And if your answer is yes, then, I don't know. Don't you want the change to the better?
Here's my take on high school: the reason it stays with most people is because A) almost everyone goes through it, and B) they all go through it with, you know, with a lot of firsts. You know, your first car. Your first love. Your first sexual experience. First cry-all-night-crash-and-burn breakup. Your first hate crime. First date rape. First drug use. First time being labeled. First time you realized you weren't as rich or smart or fast or strong or pretty or mean or physical or prudish or whatever everyone else seemed to be at the time. The first time you realized that it's not what you are or who you are, but who they let you be. But, here's some other firsts high school could be. Okay? The first time you held your head up and decided not to play that game, you know? Or the first time you found the right words to say to the right someone who really needed to hear them. The first time you realized you were good at something or that you cared about something enough to want to be good at it. The first time you shrugged off a label or rumor or an attack and just simply took the high road - let it go. Or the first time you decided to fight back. What's that line in Vanilla Sky? Um, 'Every day is another chance to turn it all around.' Now you guys know why I like the Cameron Crowe movies. I said I wasn't going deep tonight, ah well, don't be afraid to be great. Okay? Promise yourself that and, while you're at it, don't be afraid to be you.
Alright, I feel like I can sleep now. And maybe even dream. Goodnight, guys."
--Peyton Sawyer, One Tree Hill
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[thursday
november 10, 2005
at 6:26pm] |
I'm kinda in a writing mood so I'm gonna clue you in on a few things with my life at the moment or maybe just write to myself. Call it self therapy.
I've been making a lot of new friends lately and I adore all of them. Unfortunately, I'm not too good at balancing my new friends with my old friends and for that I am sorry. I wish it was summer and I could spend all my nights out with all different people. This year so far has changed my world alot. I'm not in classes with any of the same people as last year and it's weird cause I never see the people who I used to spend almost 7 periods a day with 5 days a week. I'm lucky to catch some of them in the hall to say hi. However, even though I miss so many of those people I can't help but have fun with the others. I've met a lot of seniors this year and they've been pretty good friends to me. Don't get me wrong I still love all the rest of you, I'm not trying to replace anyone, there's enough room in my heart for all of you. :)
I'm doing okay in school, nothing special. No national honors society or AP classes or anything but I'm staying afloat and I'm doing it on my own. It's a pretty big accomplishment for me to be succeeding in all of my classes, as strange as that may sound to some of you. Well, maybe not all of them, but we won't talk about chem. ;) Surprisingly, my favorite class is one in which we don't even speak english. That's right good ol' Senor Connolly. I don't like all of my classes but those 2 or 3 i suppose won't kill me.
I've been on a pretty big Ryan Cabrera kick lately. Ever since I saw him in concert last Friday, his music has become my life. I swear I can relate to so many of his lyrics and I can really appreciate it. I love guys who play guitars. I wish I could play. There's just something about it, like their playing the guitar is your key to their soul or something, as corny as I'm sure that sounds. Ryan Cabrera, Jason Mraz, John Mayer, gosh I love them. <3
And then there's something else. Someone I should say. Their name?...yea like I've got the guts to actually put it in here. But there is someone who makes me smile at just the thought of them. And it's strange cause without even knowing it, theyve help me get through something I've been dealing with for practically ever now....I dont know, I'll let you know how it turns out.
And I guess that's it, I don't know I just felt in the mood to express myself. Probably some grammar or spelling mistakes in there or whatever but I didn't read it over. Once I wrote it its down. None of that rewind and re-record crap. But Bert-How was this entry for punctuation? You can comment if you have anything to say, I'm welcome to it. But its time for me to head out for the night so I'll talk to you guys later, but for now I'll just leave you with some Anna Nalick...
"If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me threatening the life it belongs to and I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud and I know that you'll use them, however you want to."
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[wednesday
november 02, 2005
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i'm so sick of people
period
thats it im just sick of them
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[sunday
october 30, 2005
at 9:14am] |
Homecoming Dance 2005
opinions on it?
decorations, food, dance in general?
i spent a month of my life on that event i hope you all enjoyed it :)
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[thursday
october 06, 2005
at 9:21pm] |
so i havent updated since b4 school started but i wrote this last night & i figured this could bring u up to speed on how ive been
Feeling so lost in this world, can't find my way
Searching for a smile that'll stay throughout the day
Temporary happiness no longer works for me
Not when I end up in tears constantly
I feel like people tend to slip away
And pain is the only price I pay
My heart aches, my body shakes, things just aren't right
Not when tears are what end my night
People always leave, people always lie
People keep giving me reasons to say goodbye
When it's the hardest thing to say, harder to do
I just can't make myself part ways with you
I want better days, no more bad
I want to smile, not be sad
I'm tired of these thoughts that make me upset
I long to be free of this mindset
I want my carefree days back
Right now, happiness is what I lack
I need these feelings to go away
I just don't know what else to say
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[saturday
august 20, 2005
at 5:37pm] |
pre calc honors
lang & lit
spanish 4 college
crime & violence/american neighbors
study(with college prep)/video production
chem college
study with chem lab D days
lemme know if we have any classes together
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[sunday
july 17, 2005
at 10:58pm] |
yea i should update
last night had my birthday party finally & i got an iPOD MINI!!!!! along with other gifts that i love goshkins i love my friends thanks for coming guys i love u! <33333 even u fucking pyros lol
saw charlie & the choc. factory today with joanna colleen chelsea kelsie & meg sat 3rd row cause it was packed it was so good i loved it!!! but u cant really compare it to the original cause theyre so different from each other so sorry i cant say which one i liked better
ash came over 2nite i love that girl we had good talks
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[thursday
july 14, 2005
at 7:37pm] |
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[tuesday
july 05, 2005
at 11:11pm] |
today was fun
went to the beach with colleen, then we walked to kys house where amanda was, then me & coll went to subway to eat & ky called us & they needed sugar so we went to adams & then dairy queen for milkshakes, we went back to kys & then me ky colleen amanda joanna mrs phelan & mrs phelans sister brought food over to meg coppolas & we stayed there for a while & then i went back to colleens house & we hung out with ashley & watched big fish good movie i like it
2morrow i think were taking meg out for lunch for her birthday should be a good time then relay meeting & sleeping at codys
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[monday
july 04, 2005
at 11:01pm] |
i just played minesweeper for 2.25 hours & didnt win once
what a waste of life
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[saturday
july 02, 2005
at 9:16pm] |
my new icon is my favorite thing in the whole world
they need to get married
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[friday
july 01, 2005
at 11:44am] |
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ok so lets go back to the end of finals shall we?
went to breakfast with the yayas on that last day then hung out at the richetellis--then that night was mine & codys 1 year anniversary so we went to dinner @ bennys & then went to robyns & thne had a sleepover at codes where we exchanged gifts & then talked to zach & vinny outside at midnight vinny is my new friend from bennigans lol
the next night me & robyn went to michelles & the 3 of us just talked
friday was leighs party it was fun
saturday saw cinderella man with joanna, meg, & colleen & it was soooo good i cried throughout the whole thign
sunday hunna hunna night at colleens with ashley
monday sleptover michelles house but hung out with code robyn katie dan kaelyn & kyle
tuesday went to the mall with cody & robyn
wednesday went to the krusinskis for johns birthday & hung out with meg
last night colleen & chelsea's mardi gras birthday party omg it was sooooo much fun!!!! my mask won me a prize!!! & we danced for 4 straight hours it was sooooo much fun i loved it thanks girls it was fun happy birthday to yous
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[tuesday
june 28, 2005
at 1:28pm] |
i screwed up.
again.
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